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Sunday, October 29, 2006

Selfish

I think I need to work on being selfish. I think, often, that I am just the most selfish thing on the face of this grimy earth. Now please, don't try to argue with me on this one. A conviction is not a conviction if someone trys to convice one otherwise. I suppose this is not a real conviction, more like something that always needs to be worked on; a never ending work in progress. Sort of like Rochester, always construction, or a up and coming University, always some tore up side walk and a new building.
Yeah, im like a up and coming University.

Up and coming...look out.

So, in conclusion,

God help me with my selfish soul
.

-_-

In other less moral news I did not do anything acedemic this entire weekend and I need someone to slap my wrist for that.

In other even less moral news the world outside of America is depsressing and needs lots of help.

In other less moral news human beings in general are currupt and need a savior.

In other... see, I am really trying to think of something to say that does not involve some sort of "personalized" set of standards, some sort of "individualistic" morals, but, I can't homie, I just can't. The fact that I can't maybe, in a small way, proves that there is no such thing as "personal" morals but one large standard that is written on the hearts of every human being. this is touchy and I won't get into detial, but CS Lewis's book Mere Christianity discusses it.

Again, touchy, but sometimes I think about it and it makes sense. =/

No personal morals only personal deviance from a greater standard.

How does it sound? I feel like im offending people...but I dont mind
=D

kuz why???

Yeah...thats why silly blind man, thats why.

Here is some news that involves no personal opinion what-so-ever, no personal beliefs, no individual opinion, this is free from all that, this is the bottom line...

everyone (including me) is broken, empty, and jaded in their own way and needs Jesus to come into their lives to fill our gaps, renew our strength, and purify our filthy bodys.

anddd thats fact =P

PS - So much, so much more...

4 comments:

dizzle said...

Word man; thats like the same thing i was tryin to say but as always you put it in a more creative and poignant (pronounced as its spelled) way.

And moral relativism has got to be one of the most annoying things in the world; but as you say the minute you bring up the fact that morality is something that is established outside of our smart little brains someone gets offended. And as usual i know what im trying to say but it aint coming out right. Thats why theres dudes like you and CS Lewis. Haha aight man peace,
Diz

Anonymous said...

Hi Johnny! I love reading your thoughts, especially just now. You have a beautiful heart for people...anyway, I miss ya and can't wait to COME AND GET YOU AT COLLEGE FOR THANKSGIVING! That's right, it's gonna happen, so we need to talk :) Also, advice with the academics: find a good motivated friend to do hw with at like a computer lab or lib or someplace other than your room and 9 out of 10 times, it should be successful. So keep being you and doin what you do. Much love, Corinna PS. I'm in love with your brother ;)

Anonymous said...

I forgot to say something: I love your line "I'm an up and coming University." I know that I am too, and I've thought of thoughts like that with a butterfly analogy. It's interesting because I've felt like I'm at the flying stage of metamorphasis and then other times I'm crawling helplessly, needing my Savior...But overall I know I need Jesus all the time for everything and if I'm flying it's because of Him: His love, mercy and grace.

John said...

I love you Cori! cant wait to see you!

PS - you can be in love with my brother, im cool with that ^^